i love you
lol thanks. and i’m still learning how to be me to be honest.
so this is a rant, idk if i’m gonna delete it or not. i’m really upset right now. i am. school has just been so suckish lately and i hate it. for a little background, i’m at a school that’s the district for my old elementary school. for middle school and half of high school i was at a private school. now i’m in the district again and frankly all my old “friends” forgot me. i mean it has been 6 years but still. only a few of them know i exist. i like one of them and i thought we could maybe get a friendship back but i guess not. boys are horrible. and aside from that i’m a junior in high school and i’m not ready for college, i feel unparalleled from the rest of the world, i don’t really have friends and i feel like i don’t even exist. sometimes i really wish i didn’t exist so i wouldn’t have to go through all the awkward times. i’m just frustrated. in my classes i’m pretty much the awkward, mute, nerd girl. i’m stupid for thinking he’d give me attention too. idk. i just feel that every girl deserves a guy to treat her right. i don’t bother people, i try to stay out of everyone’s way. i guess i’m a good person. idk. i don’t even know who i am these days.
wanna find out random facts about me? of course you do.
1. i’m 17.
2. i’m a poet.
3. i’m straight.
4. i’ve never had a boyfriend. ever.
5. i love fashion.
6. i’m a devout Christian.
7. i don’t have my life figured out.
8. i’m Cameroonian but I was born in Wisconsin.
9. I’ve been living in Atlanta since I was 8.
10. I sing.
11. I dance.
12. I’m somewhat anti-social sometimes.
13. I love music.
14. i eat a lot.
15. i over think all the time
16. i’ve never been kissed
17. i’m just tryna make it to Heaven.
18. I have a twin brother who’s dead
19. I just wanna be loved, you know?